🎶 2022-03-12 10:30:00 - Paris/France.
Kae Tempest ali patebulo kunja kwa malo odyera, akusewera ndi ndudu. Murphy, Tempest's Alaskan Malamute, akunjenjemera pamene ndimayandikira ndipo, pondiwerengera nthawi, Tempest anaika ndudu - isanayatse - m'thumba lake la pachifuwa. Kwa zaka zambiri, barnet yayitali ya Tempest inali yodziwika bwino. Komabe, masiku ano, atavala nsapato zoyera, ma jeans okulungidwa ndi jekete ya turquoise, tsitsi lawo limadulidwa, mawonekedwe owoneka bwino omwe nthawi zina amangosilira, akutero Tempest.
Timakumana poyenda ku Catford, kum'mwera chakum'mawa kwa London, pa pempho la Tempest; ngodya ya likulu lomwe amatcha kwawo kuyambira ali mwana. Wolemba ndakatulo wodziwika bwino, wolemba komanso wojambula, Tempest watha zaka khumi akuyenda padziko lonse lapansi, koma china chake chawabweretsanso kuno. « Anthu amandifunsa chifukwa chimene ndinakhalira kumeneko,” iwo akutero. “Ndi chifukwa chakuti ndimadzimva kukhala pafupi kwambiri ndi malo ano ndi anthu amene ndawadziŵa kwa moyo wanga wonse kuno. Mphepo yamkuntho, yemwe tsopano ali ndi zaka 36, sanamvepo kufunika kothawa.
Timayenda kwa kanthawi, tisanakhazikike pa benchi yabata pafupi ndi mtsinje. Ndi kumapeto kwa Januware - kukuzizira kotheratu. Tempest akufotokoza momwe, m'zaka zawo zoyambirira, zilankhulo ndi mawu zidawathandizira kuyenda padziko lonse lapansi - momwe china chake chidawonekera pomwe adayamba kusewera pakati pa anzawo ali achinyamata. Anadutsa magawo osiyanasiyana, kutenga maikolofoni nthawi iliyonse mipata ikapezeka. Panali maphwando a squat ndi zikondwerero za hippie; East London amasangalala.
“Ndinkagwira ntchito m’sitolo yojambulira mawu, ndipo ndinkatuluka n’kukaima mumsewu waukulu n’kumaimba nyimbo zoimbira za ana osokonezeka pokwerera basi. M'zaka zake zoyambirira za makumi awiri, Tempest adapeza mawu olankhulidwa. Posakhalitsa kusungitsa zinthu kunayamba kubwera, monganso zolembera zolembera zisudzo. "Ndipamene ndidamva kuti njira izi zikutseguka muubongo wanga," akutero Tempest. “Sinali rap ya mipiringidzo 16 yokha, inali nkhani: chiwembu, kapangidwe kake, mitu. Ndinali kumva maganizo anga akusintha.
Bisani ndipo fufuzani… Tempest inatenga pafupifupi zaka ziwiri kuti ilankhule za chisankho chake chotuluka ngati chosakhala cha binary. Kujambula: Wolfgang Tillmans
Mphepo yamkuntho imakhala ndi mphamvu yosangalatsa pamene amafotokozera ntchito iliyonse yofuna chidwi ndi ntchito. Koma zikafika pakukambilana nkhani zaumwini pa zokambirana zathu, amadulana wina ndi mzake - maonekedwe ambiri odekha.
Mu Ogasiti 2020, mu positi ya Instagram, Tempest idatuluka ngati yopanda binary. Iwo analengeza kuti dzina lawo tsopano linali Kae (lolitchula ngati chilembo K) ndipo anafotokoza kuti m’tsogolo adzagwiritsa ntchito masinauni. “Ndinayesa,” iwo analemba motero panthaŵiyo, “kukhala chimene ndinaganiza kuti ena amafuna kuti ndisakhalepo kuti ndisakhale pangozi yokanidwa. Kudzibisa ndekha kumeneku kwadzetsa zovuta zamitundumitundu m'moyo wanga. Ndipo ndi sitepe yoyamba yopita ku chidziwitso chabwinoko ndikudzilemekeza ndekha. Kupitilira mawuwo, komabe, lero ndi imodzi mwa nthawi zoyamba kulankhula poyera za zomwe adakumana nazo.
"Zotulukapo zakhala zazikulu," akutero Tempest, mwamanyazi. “Chinthu chokongola koma chovuta kuchita poyera. Mchitidwewo unali wodzala ndi mbuna ndi zosatsimikizirika. "Ndizovuta kunena kuti, 'Hey taonani, ndine wodutsa kapena wosakhala wa binary,' kwa okondedwa anu. Ndipo ndili ndi moyo wamapasa kuposa anzanga ndi abale anga.
Sindikumvetsa momwe matupi athu adakhalira malo ankhondo
“Anthu a ku Trans ndi achikondi kwambiri, okongola kwambiri,” iwo akutero. “Ndimaganizira za anthu a m’dera langa komanso mphamvu zimene anthu amene amandipatsa amandiuza kuti sindiyenera kupirira ndekha. Mphepo yamkuntho imamva mphamvu yowonekera. “Ngati ndikubisala ndikuchita manyazi ndi ine ndekha, [ngati] ndikuchita manyazi nawo.
Mphepo yamkuntho ili pamalo olimba ndipo akudziwonetsera yekha kupyolera mu ntchito yake, ndipo zopereka zake zaposachedwa ndizofanana. Mwezi wamawa adzatulutsa chimbale chawo chachinayi, The Line Is a Curve. Ma Album awo awiri oyambirira adalandira mphoto ya Mercury. Tempest adalemba kale masewero atatu, buku ndi mabuku asanu ndi limodzi a ndakatulo ndipo chaka chatha adasindikiza On Connection, nkhani zawo zoyamba zabodza. "Koma zayamba kundidabwitsa kuti nyimboyi ili yosiyana bwanji ndi ena onse," iwo akutero, "kutalika kwake komwe kungapite." Ndiko kukwaniritsa china choposa chimene ena akhala ali.
Nyimbo, The Line Is a Curve ndithudi ndi nkhani yodziwika bwino komanso yaumwini kuposa zomwe zili pamwambazi; Komabe, mphamvu zanyimbo za Tempest ndi machitidwe ake sizisintha. Chigawo chilichonse chimafika mozama: “Ndimadzimva kuti ndikutsegula… Ndasiya kuyembekezera, ndikuphunzira kudalira; ndipatseni chikondi, ndilandire chikondi ndisakhale china koma chikondi.
Kwa nthawi yoyamba m'zaka zisanu ndi zitatu, nkhope ya Tempest imalembedwanso pazithunzi. Iwo amati ndi chizindikiro chofuna kuitanira omvera m’njira imene poyamba inkaoneka ngati yovuta. Mphepo yamkuntho idakhala zaka zambiri kuyang'ana zowonekera komanso zosasangalatsa mkati.
Mengeraninso… Tsitsi lowoneka mwatsopano la Tempest. Kujambula: Wolfgang Tillmans
"Kwa zolemba ziwiri zomaliza," iwo akutero, "ndinkafuna kutha kuzimiririka pazotsatira zamakampani. Panali chikhumbo chenicheni cholola kuti ntchitoyo ilankhule; nthawi zonse akulimbana ndi mfundo yakuti monga wolemba zotsatira zawo zinali zokwanira, koma kumasula nyimbo kumatanthauza kukhala pamaso pa anthu. Koma nthawi ino ndikufuna kukhala wosiyana. »
Izi sizikutanthauza kuti kusinthako ndi kosavuta. “Nkovuta kulankhula nanu,” akuvomereza motero Tempest. “Chifukwa ndikudziwa momwe zimakhalira. Kodi chidzachitike ndi chiyani? Anthu amtundu wa Trans amagwiritsidwa ntchito m'njira zodabwitsazi kufotokoza mantha akulu a anthu pa zinthu zina; kutengeka ndi anthu opanda umunthu…” Maso onyowa, kuwawa kwawo kumamveka. "Sindikumvetsa momwe thupi langa, matupi athu, akhala gawo lankhondo. Matupi awa omwe takhalamo moyo wathu wonse.
“Ndinasiya,” akutero Tempest, “koma kodi mungakonde ngati ndisuta? Iwo amatuluka ndi kuyatsa ndudu iyi.
Patatha milungu iwiri, ndikukhalanso kutsidya lina la Tempest ndi Murphy, nthawi ino m'bwalo la studio yakumwera kwa London. Masiku angapo m’mbuyomo, iwo analemberana mameseji kuti anene zoti tidzakumananso. “Ndinazengereza kulankhula za ine nthaŵi yomalizira pamene tinakumana,” iwo akutero mwapang’onopang’ono. Pali chiopsezo ku mawu awo. “Ndimaona ngati ndiyenera kusamala. Ndine wokamba nkhani: Ndikudziwa mphamvu ya nthano. Kupyolera mu ntchito yawo, ndithudi, Tempest amagawana zithunzi za miyoyo yawo. Koma ndakatulo ndi prose zimatha kusokoneza tsatanetsatane; luso likhoza kukhalapo mwatsatanetsatane.
"Chimbale chonsechi, ndi ndondomekoyi, ndi kumasulidwa kwanga, ndikuyang'anizana ndi lingaliro la woimba," iwo akutero, "ndipo momwe zimasiyana ndi kukhala wolemba masewero kapena wolemba, kumene simungawonekere. Mbali ina ya Tempest imalakalaka kusawoneka kumeneko. “Panthawi yomweyi, ndimaopa chiyani? Ndi moyo wanga. Mwina, amati, kumasuka kungathe kuchiza. "Zowawa za zomwe zinali - kufunsidwa kapena pa TV, ululu umenewo ulinso ndi [jenda] dysphoria," iwo akutero. "Ndipo chifukwa ndikuchitapo kanthu kuti ndikonze, mwina sizingapweteke nthawi ino." »
“Sindikutanthauza chinthu cholakwika kwa anthu anga,” iwo akuwonjezera motero. Mphepo yamkuntho imamva kuti ali ndi udindo. "Nkhani zodutsa zikakambidwa m'manyuzipepala, nthawi zambiri si anthu omwe amalankhula. Chifukwa chake munthawi iyi yosowa pali munthu wolankhula za trans, sindikufuna kuwononga kapena kutaya mwayi.
Ndinali wosiyana kwambiri zomwe zinadabwitsa anthu: ndiwe ndani? Ndinu chani? Mogwira mtima, sindinafune kupitilira kugonana kumodzi kapena wina
Iwo amatenga miniti. Kugawana nkhani zakale, akutero Tempest, sikophweka. Iwo anati: “Mpaka pamene ndinatha msinkhu, ndinkakhala ngati mnyamata. "Anthu ondizungulira anali ngati, 'Ndiwe tomboy, udzakhala bwino.' Ndinaziyika izo mkati ndipo ndikuyembekeza kuti nditero. Izo sizinachitike. “Kutha msinkhu kunali kosokoneza maganizo. Zinandibweretsera zowawa kwambiri. »
Zomwe adayika patsambalo sizinagawidwe konse, koma ngakhale pamenepo Tempest adapeza chitonthozo m'mawu ndi chilankhulo. Ndipo pakati pa anzawo, makamaka anyamata owongoka komanso acisgender, Tempest adalandiridwa mwachikondi ndipo palibe mafunso omwe adafunsidwa. Palibe chonena. "Ndinali m'modzi mwa anyamatawa", akuti: kumverera uku kodziwika, chimodzi mwa zifukwa zomwe sanafune kuchoka m'derali. Koma nditakumana ndi munthu watsopano, ndinayenera kuyambiranso. Ana ambiri a trans amakumana ndi izi. Ndipo ndinalibe gulu la anthu aukali, kapena mawu oti ndifotokoze, choncho nthawi zonse ndinkabisala.
Chakumapeto kwa zaka za m'ma 80 ndi koyambirira kwa zaka za m'ma 90, panalibe kumvetsetsa ndi kuthandizira kwa ana a trans ndi omwe si a binary. Namondwe analimbana. "Ndinali ndi ADHD, kuvutika maganizo, mantha a mantha komanso dysphoria. Ndinali ndi nthawi yovuta kukhala ndi ubongo wanga mu thupi ili. Anasiya kupita kusukulu, m'malo mwake kutenga ma GCSE kuchokera kugawo lowongolera ophunzira. “Ndinaledzera kwambiri, ndinkagwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Ndinakhalapo kwakanthawi. Mphepo yamkuntho imawonjezera pa izi mu On Connection: usiku wogona m'manda ndi mnzako wapamtima yemwe anali chidakwa cha heroin; kugwidwa ndi bambo wachikulire posinthanitsa mowa ndi ndudu. Manyazi amene anali nawo pa jenda, akutero Tempest, anali owononga kwambiri.
“Zonsezi kunena kuti nditakhazikika pa nyimbo zanyimbo, rap ndi nyimbo,” iwo akupitiriza, kupeza zotulukapo, “zinali zopulumutsa moyo weniweni. A mankhwala ululu pamene ine ndinasokonezeka ndi kudwala. Tsiku ndi tsiku, dysphoria inali gwero lachisoni chachikulu. “Chifukwa ndinali wosiyana kwambiri ndi enawo, zimawadabwitsa: ndinu ndani? Ndinu chani? Anthu sankandimvetsa. Pothamanga, imeneyo inali chiphaso changa. Sindinafunikire kuti ndidutse ngakhale jenda.
Mphepo yamkuntho ku National Theatre rehearsals for Paradise. Kujambula: Helen Murray
Nyimbozi sizinali zothawirako Tempest, zidachotsanso chidwi cha anthu ku matupi awo. "Pamene ndinali ndi rap ndi nyimbo," akutero Tempest, " izi ndi Zomwe ndinali. Zina zonse zasowa. Ndinatsala pang’ono kusiya thupi langa n’kukhala wojambula.
Iwo anali otsimikiza mtima kuchita bwino monga oseŵera. Koma kuoneka kotereku kunabwera ndi zovuta zake. Mwadzidzidzi iwo anali "iye" ndi "iye" m'manyuzipepala; asankhidwa mugulu la akazi abwino kwambiri. Mafunso angawoneke ngati oopsa. Sikuti dysphoria idachokapo, koma ndi maso onse pa iwo, Tempest samadziwa momwe angathanirane nayo.
Iwo anati: “Ndinkafunitsitsa kuti zinthu zindiyendere bwino. Choncho ndinangonyalanyaza ndikupitiriza. Kwa nthawi yayitali, dysphoria yanga idabisidwanso kwa ine. Kwa zaka 10, zakhala zikundidya ine. Kusapeza bwino komwe kukukulirakulira: mupanga chiyani?
Tempest analota kumumeta tsitsi. “Ndinali kufuna kwambiri,” iwo akutero, “kwakuti nthaŵi iliyonse ndikawona munthu watsitsi lalifupi kapena wometedwa mwatsopano, zinkandipweteka m’thupi. Kwa zaka zambiri, Tempest ankamva kuti ali m'maloko awo aatali: amayamikira anthu anati kudula ma curls aatali amenewo kudzakhala chiwembu. Icho chinakhala chophiphiritsa: chishango chimene Mkuntho unabisala, inde, komanso kuimira kusakhazikika kwawo ndi ziyembekezo za ukazi. Iwo anati: “Ndinaona kuti sindingathe kuzidula. "Ndinali ngati, 'Ndikachita izi, ndingathe kukwerabe pa siteji? Anthu adzasiya kumvetsera. Ndizopenga zomwe dysphoria imachita kwa inu.
"Ndinasiya kukhala ndi moyo womwe ndidali," akutero, "ndipo mwina ndili ndi zaka 50, nditasiya ntchito imeneyi, ndimaganiza kuti nditha kusintha. Koma mochulukira, sindinathe kupiriranso. Mu Januware 2020, adameta tsitsi lawo lalifupi. Maso awo amasangalala akamadzutsa maganizo a ufulu. Ndiyeno mliri unagunda. Kwa nthawi yoyamba mu zomwe zidamveka ...
SOURCE: Ndemanga za News
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